Transition of MzzA

Well the hubby and I survived an eventful Christmas with the 'Crew'. We were able to enjoy our holiday season with all '5' of our children and it was wonderful. I have a wonderful family and would not trade any of them nor the unique aspect each of them bring into our lives. Of course the children enjoyed the gift exchange and for the first year our 5 year old had an understanding of the purposes of the season and had a heart compelled to give. I provided her with funds to purchase gifts for her siblings at her school holiday store and she could not have been more excited to give. The moments like those are wonderful 'pats on the back' for a parent and bring joy to my heart. Watching my step-son play with his siblings and look back at me only to say, "I'm having a great time.....having so much fun". Those moments erase any doubt or confusion that co-parenting may bring on because when it is all said and done, it is about the joy of a child. ...

In the light of a tragedy that really hit home to me due to me being a mother I feel the urge to express my new found clarity.   It is clear from the response of many people around me that fear exudes anger as does an angry spirit around you.   I’m not sure that I understand how such a tragedy which has left an entire town in pain can cause society to be so hateful in response.   I see that no matter the motive nothing with justify the harming of little innocent children and no gun law or armed teachers will correct this.   This dangerous person was clearly controlled in anger and we are allowing his anger to be exuded among us. I feel that this is the time for society to support one another and pray for a devastated community rather than arguing about gun laws or the reason for the killings or who is to blame (the mother, the father, or lack of mental health assistance).   The respect has been lost in society and even I am re-evaluating myself to take re...

In looking up the definition of abnormality I found it to mean: an abnormal condition, state, or quality; irregularity; deviation.  This may be a permenant or temporary state and in many cases it is up to one to do something in order to determine which it will be.  I have decided that my holiday spirit abnormality shall be a temporary state as I'm not satisfied with this deviation.  lol I am generally a sap for the Christmas holidays and generally extremely excited to shop, decorate and bake yet this year I have yet to get into that spirit of cheer and excitement.  I haven't been able to find the joy yet after much prayer and soul searching I figured it out.  I'm looking too much into the natural things for the joy that I need......I need to simplify my desires and get into the joy and meaning of this season.  No matter my faults, misfortunes, or earthly desires God still remains God and we must celebrate the birth of Jesus if we are b...