Transition of MzzA

Well the hubby and I survived an eventful Christmas with the 'Crew'. We were able to enjoy our holiday season with all '5' of our children and it was wonderful. I have a wonderful family and would not trade any of them nor the unique aspect each of them bring into our lives. Of course the children enjoyed the gift exchange and for the first year our 5 year old had an understanding of the purposes of the season and had a heart compelled to give. I provided her with funds to purchase gifts for her siblings at her school holiday store and she could not have been more excited to give. The moments like those are wonderful 'pats on the back' for a parent and bring joy to my heart. Watching my step-son play with his siblings and look back at me only to say, "I'm having a great time.....having so much fun". Those moments erase any doubt or confusion that co-parenting may bring on because when it is all said and done, it is about the joy of a child. ...

In the light of a tragedy that really hit home to me due to me being a mother I feel the urge to express my new found clarity.   It is clear from the response of many people around me that fear exudes anger as does an angry spirit around you.   I’m not sure that I understand how such a tragedy which has left an entire town in pain can cause society to be so hateful in response.   I see that no matter the motive nothing with justify the harming of little innocent children and no gun law or armed teachers will correct this.   This dangerous person was clearly controlled in anger and we are allowing his anger to be exuded among us. I feel that this is the time for society to support one another and pray for a devastated community rather than arguing about gun laws or the reason for the killings or who is to blame (the mother, the father, or lack of mental health assistance).   The respect has been lost in society and even I am re-evaluating myself to take re...

In looking up the definition of abnormality I found it to mean: an abnormal condition, state, or quality; irregularity; deviation.  This may be a permenant or temporary state and in many cases it is up to one to do something in order to determine which it will be.  I have decided that my holiday spirit abnormality shall be a temporary state as I'm not satisfied with this deviation.  lol I am generally a sap for the Christmas holidays and generally extremely excited to shop, decorate and bake yet this year I have yet to get into that spirit of cheer and excitement.  I haven't been able to find the joy yet after much prayer and soul searching I figured it out.  I'm looking too much into the natural things for the joy that I need......I need to simplify my desires and get into the joy and meaning of this season.  No matter my faults, misfortunes, or earthly desires God still remains God and we must celebrate the birth of Jesus if we are b...

After a 23 year friendship I'm able to celebrate with one of my best friends as she embarks on becoming a wife.  Today we celebrated her as bride to be through a successful bridal shower.  There are not many individuals outside of family that one is able to love genuinely.  I have learned through the years that many people look for friendships/relationships and love yet do not make themselves available to be loved. Well after establishing a great friendship in the 1st grade I have not only learned how to be a great adult friend making myself available to be loved and maintain my responsibilities as a mother, wife, sister, daughter, niece and .......  I am so excited to see the growth and prosperity in my friend.  I join her in praying and pushing her into a successful marriage.  In this success we began with honeymoon attire.....lol  I love Javashea and wish you and Darian a lifetime of joy and peace in your marriage. ...

  So it amazes me the number of American on lookers I get when entering a store (other than my normal shops) with my 'crew'. I guess when you have more than two children in our society you become a freak of nature and have officially stepped outside the mold of American normalcy (whatever the heck that is??). So I'm thinking why exactly is that....maybe because having more than two children means your kids will definitely wreck the place, or maybe you could not have possibly wanted that many kids, or you have to be an unmarried super sinner without a clue of spiritual abstinece to have had that many kids or lastly you are apparently babysitting.  So I love to bust it all with a yes they are mine 12, 5 and a set that I bought one and got one free 2 years ago.  My husband and I enjoy every minute of it; if only I did not have to work so much and could spend more time with them rather than a daycare.  KAPOWWW....did I just kill most of your wonders; good because ...

Blah, blah, blah, blah.....why, why, why??  Ever have those types of moments when doing laundry, feeding children, bathing another child, preparing dinner only to then have to put away the laundry and clean the kitchen.  All of this going on around just you it seems because everyone else is laying around watching tv, playing games and reading funny facebook posts.  Well I just had that moment not many days ago.  A serious case of the woe is me!!!  lol Well not many hours following my moment....my love was involved in a car accident, much more than a fender bender but his life was saved.  On my trek to the hospital after calmly dropping off the twins....God was sure to remind me of my 'woe' moment and that it could have very well been my last 'woe' wifey moment.  I could only cry and bask in the grace that once again had been bestowed upon my family.  In this I'm reminded that although we will have rough moments (financial difficulties, tire...

Being a woman from a close family it was a difficult task for me to learn the correct way to follow the word of God and cling to my husband without turning my back on my friends and family.  This has posed to difficult to many women and men as I've heard many immature statements such as; "don't put your woman before your boys" or "woman code of honor....friends will always be there".  But in all reality this is not biblical and I have over time had to change my stance.  I'm committed to not only my husband but also to God with my marriage in order to prosper.  The word reads;  And unto the married I command (yet not I, but the Lord): let not the wife depart from her husband (1Corinthians 7:10).  Through this growth and knowledge I'm being sure to communicate with my husband openly and with love.  I will not allow another to separate me from him as it is a commitment I have made before God and witnesses that we are not just dating any longer bu...

As I have not posted yet this year I thought it was about time for me to update my blog on my year thus far although it has been a difficult one.  In the last 47 days I have gone through a lot of trials within my little (yet large) family yet today is the first day that I had clarity on how hard I'm really taking it.  As a mother you go through your daily routines and get things done in order to maintain normalcy for your children and you think of your emotional self later.  Well here I am almost 50 days later finally thinking of my emotional self. I sit here and I remember watching videos and discussing them with my co-workers (my what I have named them....'Aces') about parents that teach their babies to learn to swim by placing them in the water and allowing them to learn to self rescue.  The babies within weeks learned to flip onto their backs and float to safety.  Although, this was a terrifying event to watch as a parent I totally understood the logic beh...