The Fruit of Patience

Hi all…today I would like to thank God for wisdom and patience.  As a mother I find myself instilling patience in my children daily, sometimes purposely and sometimes accidentally.  More recently I realized how much I need to instill this exact thing into my adult life in all aspects.  As a mother I work hard to ensure a schedule for my kids and focusing on grooming them for the next level of their lives.  As a wife I have a goal to give 100% to my marriage and aim constantly for relationship improvement in whatever manner that needs to be worked on in the current season.  As a career woman working hard to continue to grow in my career including training and setting new goals for myself to open additional doors.  As a spiritual woman I want more than to please God in my life operations and uplift his people allowing his love to shine from my actions.  

In all of the goals I set forth for myself it has caused me to have moments of becoming anxious and even live so far in the future I stress myself.  I recently prayed on my goals and desires for personal growth in all of the areas mentioned above and was provided with clear words of wisdom days later.  The bible states in Philippians, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”.  This was the clarity I needed to help me to pace myself and appreciate the moment I’m in regardless of my desires for more. 

As a mother I’m learning each day something new or a new way to encourage, support, discipline and love my children in the various stages of their lives.  I desire to provide them with what has been bestowed upon me as a child with one of the best mothering figures to ever grace the earth.  I’m proud to be a mother and I desire they be proud to call me their mother.  Each of them are in different phases of life a teenager that I’m grooming for adulthood, a little one rapidly approaching middle school confusion and twins that are merely trying to enjoy each kiddie moment of life.  As I work hard to prepare them for the next phase I am learning to avoid the anxiousness of preparing yet allow them to live in the moments.  I must be patient with each of them as they learn to maneuver this world as I have. 

As a wife I don’t have the recipe for marital perfection by far.  I do however know that I have continued to strive to be the best wife my ‘oh so handsome’ husband deserves.  I find myself being impatient as we are continuing to overcome relationship obstacles and how to support one another no matter the bridge that life sometimes force us to cross.  I become easily anxious wanting improvements to take place immediately (more like yesterday…lol) but when in a marriage I have to remind myself of my own imperfections and just as he has to be patient with my inability to clean some days or provide a hot home cooked meal I must be patient with my requests as well.  We are working hard to achieve family goals as a team and each day I’m reminding myself that I am in the season of patience and I must sit in that.  God’s timing is the best timing and each moment I operate on my own schedule I will pay for it in some form.  Now is the time to enjoy what we do have as a couple rather than what we don’t and continue to work towards the additional desires one step at a time.

My career has always been important to me not only for the financial aspect of maintaining employment yet also because there is a joy that comes from achieving each career goal.  For a couple of years I have had a career goal that would not come as fast as I desire things to come.  The desire to continue to grow began to overshadow the steps I needed to take in order to achieve this goal.  Once again I reminded myself rather than being anxious for the finish line of “success” I needed to rest in God and take the necessary steps to meet this goal.  I recently took the first step and although I’m still nervous I’m excited. 

This morning as I sat in my van prior to opening the office I prayed and worshiped in thanksgiving.  I’m excited about where God has brought me from in my spiritual man and there are moments that I am blown away at the awesomeness of his grace.  As much as I want more of God and less of myself to grow to a different place spiritually I’m learning to be thankful for where I’ve come from as I work towards being who he has called me to be.  In this season I’m learning that God will not force himself onto us we must invite him into those secret places where we desire him to be in our lives.  Those places of addiction to alcohol, the spirit of lust, the place of depression, the spirit of complaining, and the cussing demon we carry around are those hidden places that many of us must invite him in and allow him to deliver us into growth.  I myself am dedicating additional time to my spirit man so rather me be anxious for a change I each day will complete the goal to pray and live as he has called me to.

We must all accept there is no shortcut to ‘Live Life’.  The desire for more and the motivation to strive towards those desires is the blessing we are all afforded.  Sometimes we seem to be running towards the finish, other days we are walking, days that we are crawling and even days that we are merely standing firmly planted in the present to avoid moving backward.  But be not anxious for that finish line just continue to strive at this season’s pace.

Until Next Time.